Life is hard! Is it worth it?

They always say life is hard but its worth it! Maybe its just because I'm young but it seem like I keep waiting for the "worth it" part! Does that sound dramatic? Yes! haha I dont mean it in a dramatic way but lately I've feel the weight of the world! I would be lying if I said its not getting to me. I feel like my life isnt going anywhere and I'm just waiting for it to start! I cant find a good job and I'm stuck working at sears! I dont even want to think about starting to get my student loan payments next month! I'm trusting in the Lord right now! I know he has a plan for me! I just feel very impatient waiting for the future! Ok I'm done with the downer talk! Lets talk about the good stuff!!! I absolutely LOVE my bishop and my singles ward!!! I never thought I would love any singles ward!!! I will actually miss this singles ward when I move on to a family ward! It's nice to finally feel at home when I go to church! I havent had that since I turned 18 and started going to a singles ward!!!! As hard as life gets I will never doubt the Lord's love for me! Its amazing!!! I got a blessing the other day from my Bishop and it helped so much! I dont even want to know where I would be without the love of the Lord and his church!

Sunday is always the best!

Well today was fast Sunday and it was amazing. I just cant express enough how amazing the Lord is! I'm so blessed to understand his gospel. I have questions yes but I just cant even imagine my life with out it! I love the Lord with all my heart and Im so grateful for Jesus and everything they do for me! I have such a great life! I know with out them in my life it wouldnt be worth living. I am also so grateful for the missionaries! They are such amazing men and women of the church! They truly do just want everyone to have the fullness of the gospel and I think they are some amazing people! I had a great day at church and wish I could go everyday! haha I cant wait until Christ comes again and we can just do temple work all the time!!! Its gonna be amazing!!!!

marriage....

It seems like a lot of my friends now days are rushing into marriage! It worries me! Especially because most of these people are getting sealed in the temple (a very good thing yes when you are ready) I was always told to know 100% that the person you marry is the one you want to be with for eternity. That word right there scares the heck out of me! I mean think about it... its not until death do you part. For me this means its the biggest decision of my life! Im not going to marry the first guy that comes my way! I'm going to pray about it. Date for a while and make sure 100% that he is the one I want to be with through thick and thin for eternity! This brings me to my next point. I feel dating guys who are worthy to take me to the temple is so important. I was talking about this to one of my friends who was surprised I only wanted to date LDS guys. For me getting married in the temple is better than never getting married at all. I want an eternal family. I want my family to have what I didnt growing up. I loved my childhood dont get me wrong and I love my family but I hope someday we will be an eternal family. I know I sound so Molly Mormon but its something thats very important to me along with making sure I marry a guy I know I will love for eternity and not rush into things. I know it can be hard. I cant wait to get married and love the idea of a family but I'm not going to rush into it and possibly ruin my life and future children's lives. Its such an important decision and I wish more people would take time before they get married. I mean at least date a few months! You dont have to propose 2 weeks after you started dating! You have time! Be patient! If this offends anyone thats not the point of this. Its just how I feel and how I'm worried about my friends who are rushing into things!